Where are you my Love????

Where are you..

Baby..
It's been 5 days.. and 4 lonely nights.. It's time to come home...
Have you been eating well..? Is it cold, where u're at..? Is it
comfortable where u slept the past few nights... Was there insects that
bite... Where do you go, when there's thunders and lightnings?
Have you been chased by anyone? Did other dogs hurt you in anyway?
Knowing you, you must be terrified...
You must be starving.. Every meal I have after you have gone, I think of
you... How I wish so hard I can share my lunch or dinner with you...
Everytime the weather changes, I think of you.. where will u hide for
shades when it's hot.. does ur paw hurts if u walk too long on the tar
road.. where will u hide for shelter when it's pouring rain..

Do you miss me..? Do you miss us..?
Baby, you changed my life the moment you stepped into my life..
You dont know it, but you did..
You're the reason that held me & ur dad together..
Baby, you're hurting me..
I can't accept that I cant see you again.. I refuse to believe that
you're out of my life..
Baby I miss everything that you do.. I'm sure Honey & Zoey miss you
too..
I haven't get enough of you yet.. I havent kiss you enough.. I haven't
hug you enough..
Who's gonna chew on Honey's ear to give her a scratch.. Who's gonna
clean Honey's eyes.. Who's gonna annoy Zoey.. When are you coming back?
U're only 2years and 9 months old..

I'm sorry baby.. I'm so sorry.. I'm sorry that in this 2years and 9
months, I spent most of it away from you.. I was in Miri the whole
2006.. and for the past 8 months, i'm in Singapore..
When you're alone out there, if you look through your life.. Am I in it?
Do you remember me? Do you miss me as much, as pain, as I miss you? Or
am I just a glimpse in your memory..

When ppl ask me, what is it that i'm most afraid of..
I would answer, the death of a love one.. Which i have not encounter..
But this..
This is just as pain as how i imagined it to be..
Though I know u're out there somewhere..
But this.. it's killing me..
It's killing me, thinking that I cant hold you anymore..
It's killing me, thinking I cant stare into those beautiful mascara eyes
of yours anymore..
It's killing me that u're not safe at home..

Baby I'm so sorry... I'm so so sorry I couldnt find you..
I'm so so sorry i cant have u in my arms again..
Baby I'm so sorry for not being there to protect you..

Baby I promise you..
If only you will come back...
I will give you everything I have..
I will let you eat all the snacks you want.. I will let you eat from my
plate..
Baby, I will even quit my job, just to spend more time with you and the
other two..
I will spend more time at home..
Baby please come home..
I promise to take you out for walks everyday when I'm in KL..
I'm sorry I didnt walk you out enough, which made you curious what's out
there..
Baby, cant you see? It's dangerous out there, that is why I kept you
in.. We were only protecting you.. Can't you see?
I promise i'll let you do anything you want..
I'll let you bite all my shoes, my slippers, my working shoes.. I'll let
you pull down the laundry, just to make a nest for you..
I promise I wont scold you if you bite anymore.. I realize b, I realized
that everything you did, was just to get our attention..
We thought we gave you all the love you need.. maybe it wasnt enough..
Baby.. Were you happy with us?
I promise i'll give you all the belly rub you want, whenever, wherever..
I promise you i wont budge anymore, when u pounce on me, even if i'm
wearing white pants or skirts..
I wont grumble if your fur sticks to my clothes..
Baby, you can sleep in my room whenever you want to.. Baby, I promise
you..
You can sleep on the couch..
At night, you can sleep on my pillow above my head, with me.. Like how
you used to when you were little.. Do you remember?
When u're afraid of fireworks or thunders.. I promise I wont laugh at
you anymore b.. I promise I promise.. Instead, i'll hold you close..
I'll keep you close..
I'm sorry I used the hair-dryer on you even when you dont like it after
bathing.. I wont anymore b, i wont..
I miss you so much.. I miss you so so much, like never before..
I miss your howls.. I miss seeing you run like the wind.. I miss you
stuffing your nose between the doors, so we couldn't close the door.. I
miss when u manja us.. I miss.. I miss you..
What do I have to do.. To see you again..
Baby.. I'll do anything.. Just.. Just come back home..

Wherever you are, I'll continue searching..
I wont give up on you b.. We won't..
Love you jackie..